Well, it's been a while since I have posted, about a month, what have you been up to? Oh, that's nice. Me? Well, I didn't get the tattoo apprenticeship. In all honesty I kind of knew anyway. The longer they took to get back to me, the less hopeful I became. But what pisses me off is that they responded to me in an email! A freakin' email! So I decided to ask them where I went wrong, but they didn't even get back to me! How the hell am I meant to improve when I don't know where I am going wrong! :( What also pisses me off is the fact that the week before they rejected me, I took my sketch book down to my tattooist while I was getting tattooed and he liked my sketches and he said that I improved! There was even a few sketches that he seemed impressed with!
So what the france am I meant to do now?! I'm running out of studios in the south west to apply for! At first I thought I was ok with not getting the apprenticeship, I guess they weren't the studio for me. But at the same time, my confidence has been shaken by this and anything that I have drawn since is not worth mentioning. I know this is another crisis of confidence, and yes, I have many but sometimes you just need a bit of valadation that what you're throwing your heart and soul into isn't a complete waste of time.
Not having a job is starting to destroy me, I feel useless. I'm starting to wonder if my folks where right. I mean, I knew this was gonna be a struggle but fucking hell this is a struggle! Rant over, I'm going to go eat my body weight in chocolate.
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